i'm dying...

to get my internet back. :( i'm using the hubsie's PS3 (so ghetto lol) i hate oceanic cable. i love roadrunner but it's too much. anyone care to share what kind of service you guys use and the rates? i need to look into something cheaper with a fast connection. i'm always giving him heat about playing madden all day long and here i am using his PS3 because i'm desperate for internet lol. Read More...

what to do...

with my life. lol. no seriously. after getting over the fact that i was no longer working, i really thought that i could just enjoy my time at home with my babies and hubs. at least for a little bit. now the hubs and i do plan on having more children. at least two more to be exact because we would love to have a big family. but i've long been in deep thought about what exactly it is that i am going to do with my life. and if in fact we do have more children i sure as hell can't be enjoying my time at home all damn day. i need to work to support those babies that we wanna have. but there is no way in hell that a silly office job will do that. here's the deal. i got my associate's degree for medical assisting in '06. yay right? when i graduated and was working for the OB/GYN that i was interning for, i clearly made a decision that that was not what i wanted to do for the rest of my life. it just wasn't me. it wasn't Lani. soo...i am still paying off my loans for that. basically, my $$$ going down the drain. talk about sad. just the thought of that gets my blood boiling. but there's nothing i can do about that now. i can't go back and return my degree and ask for a refund (but oh how i wish i could lol).

i know my tax returns should be coming soon but oh effin please, that will not last as long as i would like it to last. lol. i just do not know what to do with myself right now. don't get me wrong i really do enjoy spending time with my little ones and being a house wife but i'm a gemini and if yall know geminis, we will most likely want to wear the pants and bring home the bacon or at least be on the same level as our significant others. (well, from the geminis that i personally know, not exactly every gemini on the earth). As much as I want that big family, I know that I can't just be poppin out babies and stayin at home. Especially nowadays, children are so expensive, but such blessings to have in your life. I learn a lot from my children. I believe that true innocence lies in the hearts of children. They are very forgiving. And good lord do they say the darndest things I tell ya! lol.

Oh geez, I just rambled there now didn't I? Sorry for boring you all but thanks to anyone who actually read all that. It feels good to have an outlet like this to let off some steam or some thoughts that roam my head. ;) Read More...

hello ladies

i just gotta say thanks to the lovely owner of the Clumps of Mascara beauty blog, Ms. Divine Blackness. I seriously love her blog! She has a great sense of humor and it's so funny how we have the same interests/feelings about makeup/products. She's the shit so you gotta send her some love. ;)

so the gas co. guy JUST left my house and said the hot water should be on in about 20 min. good lord tell me why i went over a week without any hot water?! that is a damn shame and not to mention quite irritating as well. they couldn't turn it on the first time they came because the water heater itself was leaking and had to be replaced. as well as the whole gas line. so yesterday my landlord's certified plumber, that he's been using for years, came and replaced the heater and fixed the gas line. so i had to call back the gas co. and tell them that i could no longer wait another day for them to come and turn on my hot water and that someone needs to get their ass here TODAY. and turn it on. i admit, i was getting quite fussy over the phone but hell effin no was i gonna wait til tomorrow. they've already given me enough grief as it is and i am not going another day with boiling water just to bathe my son.

*waits 20 min...*

yay! it's on!! i knew they didn't want me to actually bring myself down there to get someone to turn on my hot water. :D

anyway, i'm off to take a nice HOT shower (my first since we've moved out) and then i'll be doing a crapload of laundry since i am off to work again tomorrow.

o-m-g. christmas is only 12 days from today. that is crazy!! 2008 is getting their panties in a bunch to come through already. Read More...